10 Things I Hate About U

Last night, my brother Victor walked into my room to check in on me.

He asked me how I was doing.

Ten voices in my head responded.

1

Can

one

will themselves to death?

2

My old name on Twitter used to be: Gabster

Only

two

people in my life have ever called me Gabster.

They both died.

I changed my Twitter name.

3

Why can’t I cry?

(Repeat

three

times)

4

If I Die Bury Me Next To My Father.

(Repeat

four

times)

5

I literally have no idea what I have done with my life over the past

five

days.

6

In the 5th grade, my Danish friend Sune, taught me that the number

six

is pronounced “seks (sex)” in Danish.

It made me blush.

7

I wonder if my muscles atrophy from not walking any further than the bathroom for

seven

days.

8

Victor just split into

eight

kage bunshin before my eyes.

Squint.

9

I suffered from my first stroke at

nine

years old.

Thirteen years later, I wrote about this for the first time.

10

Ten

milligrams was necessary today to numb the pain.

That’s 2.5 milligrams more than last week.

GLOW UP

Last night, my brother Victor walked into my room to check in on me.

He asked me how I was doing.

Ten voices responded
.
Upon not hearing a verbal response, Victor followed up with the simpler yes/no question:

“Do you need food or water?”

I responded with

one

grunt.

Victor understood.

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